There have been a few memorable times I've lay by Adam, heard his heart beating and experienced the overwhelming feeling of love and gratitude and yet fear for that vital organ whose simple function is to pump blood and oxygen through his body and yet keeps this man that I couldn't live without in my life. I've also had that experience with both of my kids. It's a great moment where I realize how much I need to savor each moment I have with them in this sweet time of their childhood when their heart beats so fast and yet time goes by even faster. I now can add another experience to my list........ I have been pregnant eight times, but Adalynn and Becks are the only heartbeat I have ever heard out of all my pregnancies. I usually have a miscarriage before I've gone to the doctor (12 weeks) and in the last few I miscarried before we could detect the heartbeat (8 weeks) . This week I went to the doctor and after 10 weeks of being nauseated and tired and a little discouraged with the realization that I shouldn't get my hopes up, we saw a tiny delicate heartbeat and everything changed. We are once again filled with excitement and wonder as we anxiously await the arrival of the next member of our family.
7 years ago