Sunday, July 27, 2008

Heartbeat




There have been a few memorable times I've lay by Adam, heard his heart beating and experienced the overwhelming feeling of love and gratitude and yet fear for that vital organ whose simple function is to pump blood and oxygen through his body and yet keeps this man that I couldn't live without in my life. I've also had that experience with both of my kids. It's a great moment where I realize how much I need to savor each moment I have with them in this sweet time of their childhood when their heart beats so fast and yet time goes by even faster. I now can add another experience to my list........ I have been pregnant eight times, but Adalynn and Becks are the only heartbeat I have ever heard out of all my pregnancies. I usually have a miscarriage before I've gone to the doctor (12 weeks) and in the last few I miscarried before we could detect the heartbeat (8 weeks) . This week I went to the doctor and after 10 weeks of being nauseated and tired and a little discouraged with the realization that I shouldn't get my hopes up, we saw a tiny delicate heartbeat and everything changed. We are once again filled with excitement and wonder as we anxiously await the arrival of the next member of our family.

12 comments:

Audra &Tyson said...

Well, you put me to tears. I love you so much sissy, and I am so happy for you. And I can't wait to be your little helper when you have your next baby. I couldn't get enough of your kids if I tried, and I can't wait to be there for you when you're feeling a little tired or energetic, ie lets go to yoga together. I want you to know my sweet husband has been fasting for you every week for the past three weeks because WE LOVE YOU!

Brooke said...

That was a beautiful post. Congratulations to you and your husband! It's funny how the Lord works sometimes, but we're always better for it. Best of luck in the months to come.

Kami said...

Hi Gretchen, I had to comment on this post and tell you guys congratulations! I was so touched by this post, probably because I have a very similar experience when it comes to miscarriage. It is such a hard road, and I am thankful that you chose to share your experience, because it is your story, and even though we have both experienced so many low points, I am happy that you get to enjoy the high again.

Joanne said...

I'm so happy for you that you got to hear the heartbeat! You are right that it changes everything. We'll keep praying for you.

Amberlie and Anthony said...

So you made me cry, but im so excited for you I had no idea. Anth and I miss you guys so much and can't wait to get back to be with family again. We love you!

Ute Family said...

Congrats on your pregnancy. I hope and pray for you and Adam that everything goes well with the baby. I'm so sorry for each of your losses. You must be a strog woman to endure all of that pain.

Congrats once again!

Erin & Jake

Chad & Tenaya said...

Congratulations! Best of luck to you guys.

WIKKY said...

That is so so true. What an amazing thing to be able to see a little flicker on the ultrasound. Congratulations to your cute family!!!

Kerri Johnson said...

Oh, gretchen that is so hard. I am so happy for you and hope all goes well.

katierasmussen said...

That is wonderful! Beautifully written. I hope that all goes well for you! Congradulations!

O'BRIEN FAMILY BLOG said...

CONGRATS!

Paige ~ Nate ~ Kaiden said...

You sure are good with words...I am so excited for you two! That heart beat and the joy that your shildren bring you make up for all the hard times im sure. You have two BEAUTIFUL children, I can't wait to see what a beautiful baby in the future will look like. Stay heathly, hope everything stays well!